I died

I died

I underwent serious Shamanic Death in 2015. Everything was stripped from me – health, family, “friends”, work, etc. As I began to understand the enormity of what was transpiring, I would witness as more was leaving, taken, purged, and I would remain detached and curious about the process. I decided to actively partner with the process as I purged and released more, and more. Willingly, even, after a time. It wasn’t easy. But necessary. It was also achingly beautiful. Towards the end of the active process, I made an effigy of myself and all the things about me that I was letting go of. And I buried her. I gave her(former me) a lovely, private burial ceremony. I wept in gratitude. It was quiet, peaceful. So much so, that my next thought became “I have no idea what I just did, but this ought to be HUGE.” And it was. I surrendered to the process and watched as more was stripped away – my home, my business, more of my possessions. And to some extent, my community. Then a sudden, intense AF heartbreak occurred. And I was broken open more than I ever had been in my life. I came to understand that the pain I was experiencing and expressing was the culmination of pain I’d never felt, released, or expressed throughout my current lifetime. And some from past lives. The miracles that flooded in Graced me in such an astonishing way, I’m filled with tears to recall it. I sobbed from pain, from opening, and from gratitude all at once. I easily felt all the pain of the...
New Paradigm Partnering – walking the path

New Paradigm Partnering – walking the path

**Note – This was originally written in July, 2017 and was updated in September, 2017. As I’ve delved deeper into these themes, I’ve gained more clarity and share those thoughts as an addendum. Stay tuned as I will be sharing much more about this path very soon!   Wouldn’t it be nice if what we wanted and what we needed were the same thing? This could apply to anything in life, but what I’m immersed in exploring right now is how this applies to love. Please don’t take my musings here as indications that I possess answers. I’m sharing in this conversation, offering my thoughts and processes because I get turned on by thoughtful dialogue, and because I see that many of us are contemplating these same themes. I’ve engaged this contemplation for years, and have come to believe that many of us are still stuck in old-paradigm thinking about relationships, as well as what it means to partner, what it looks like, and what it feels like to partner romantically. Even those of us who lay claim to consciousness and live on the fringe.   Old paradigm   We think we have to be in partnership or find “The One” who is our soul mate, twin flame, our forever. The spiritual community is rife with this sort of thinking.   Let’s be honest – we are indoctrinated to grow up, get a job, get married, buy a house, have kids, buy more things…. to live within an old ideal, an out-moded system.   When we marry/partner we have these ideas about what it’s supposed to be, how life isn’t...
Your Power is Waiting…

Your Power is Waiting…

Your power is waiting… I *see* you – You are strong women – Healers, priestesses, teachers, mothers, Warriors – who are doing good work in this turbulent world. I believe that all the strong women we know ourselves to be hold the key to transforming this world into one of love, peace, and sustainability. I’m inviting you to join the 3rd Annual Goddess Talks Sessions. https://www.transformationgoddess.com/goddess-talk-sessions… The conversations in this event are much like the dialogues we’re having within ourselves and with our SiStars. Use these to further inspire and fuel your good work. For we have a long, challenging path ahead. These teachers, spiritual leaders, and powerful women want to share their truth with you and help you find your authentic voice. Your complimentary registration includes access to… * All 16 INSPIRING AUDIO INTERVIEWS – 8 interviews per week for two weeks – September 18 – September 28 * 16 Transformational LOVE OFFERINGS from all 16 Speakers worth thousands of dollars * 4 Lovely Gifts from this season’s Sacred Sponsors Register now and add valuable gifts to your personal development library so you can begin to walk in beauty with the strength, courage, and pleasure of claiming your feminine sovereignty. Let us circle up * hand-in-hand * heart to heart * standing besides one another as SiStars in truth. Bring Your Sacred Energy to this Inspirational Event. Register now to learn how to stand in your power and speak your truth! https://www.transformationgoddess.com/goddess-talk-sessions…...
New Paradigm Partnering

New Paradigm Partnering

Wouldn’t it be nice if what we wanted and what we needed were the same thing? This could apply to anything in life, but what I’m immersed in exploring right now is how this applies to love. Please don’t take my musings here as indications that I possess answers. I’m sharing in this conversation, offering my thoughts and processes because I get turned on by thoughtful dialogue, and because I see that many of us are contemplating these same themes. I’ve engaged this contemplation for years, and have come to believe that many of us are still stuck in old-paradigm thinking about relationships, as well as what it means to partner, what it looks like, and what it feels like to partner romantically. Even many of us who lay claim to consciousness and live on the fringe.   Old paradigm   We think we have to be in partnership or find “The One” who is our soul mate, twin flame, our forever. The spiritual community is rife with this sort of thinking.   Let’s be honest – we are indoctrinated to grow up, get a job, get married, buy a house, have kids, buy more things…. to live within an old ideal, an out-moded system.   When we marry/partner we have these ideas about what it’s supposed to be, how life isn’t complete without it, and that we need to have a partner to build a life.   Then we partner/marry and it’s not like we thought. It’s a letdown.   We compromise who we are to fit into this idea of partnership that doesn’t fulfill us. It’s a relationship...
Compassionate Guidance for Tough Times

Compassionate Guidance for Tough Times

Dear Ones – the intense AF energy is weighing heavily on us all.   Part of it is the planetary alignments. Part of it is the angry, sad, terrors and atrocities reverberating throughout the world. I’m sorry for your pain and hardship. It’s truly tough right now. We are learning strength through keeping our hearts broken open. I experienced my own breakup/loss in November and experienced the epiphany that the pain you/me/all of us are experiencing is several things at once – It is the pain of the Collective Consciousness. It is the ancient pain buried deep in our DNA It is the pain we never got to feel, acknowledge, process and understand that comes from our early childhood, and from our past lives. Because of the nature of this pain, it is Sacred. Feeling it, staying open in our hearts, and feeling the pain of others, keeps us connected to each other. It also helps us to heal. Here’s an amazing, enlightening quote from Pema Chodron’s “When Things Fall Apart” that illustrates me last point – “This kinship with the suffering of others, this inability to continue to regard it from afar, is the discovery of bodhichitta. Bodhichitta is a Sanskrit word that means “noble or awakened heart.” It is said to be present in all beings…. We awaken this bodhichitta, this tenderness for life, when we can no longer shield ourselves from the vulnerability of our condition, from the basic fragility of existence. In the words of the sixteenth Gyalwa Karmapa, “You take it all in. You let the pain of the world touch your heart and...