Sharing My Musings With You!
My rad friend and SiStar Priestess Denise “Dirty Mother” Cumor, did me the honor of interviewing me for her blog Moon Over, where she interviews kick-ass women dedicated to the work of helping other women rise.
The following blog was originally written for, and appeared in HolisticDiva’s Summer Solstice Symposium. In preparing to publish it here, I am including more background information as an addendum. The follow-up at the bottom of the post is the most recent update to the writing, the ritual, and the process of my own healing and life circumstances.
I love to see a young girl go out and grab the world by the lapels. Life’s a bitch. You’ve got to go out and kick ass. — Maya Angelou
The purpose of this reading is to decipher the current energies related to the Full Moon in Aquarius, and to guide and inform us on how to best work consciously with energy so that we will benefit.
This reading takes us from the Full Moon forward 2 weeks, until the New Moon. The cards are drawn as close as possible to the apex of the Full Moon, and consist of an animal totem from the Medicine Card deck, a card from the Goddess Oracle deck, and a crystal ally from the Crystal Oracle deck.
Together, these cards inform our primordial selves with information that has been deeply encoded in our psyche for many lifetimes.
This just happens to be a Blue Moon as well, which amps up the wattage on the power. Taking in to consideration all the other astrological aspects – Venus, Uranus, and Eris retrograde, Saturn in Scorpio, stationing to go direct right as this moon is full – we have a perfect storm of chaos, cataclysmic change, and deep soul excavation.
Are you feeling it? Breathe. Trust.
On the other side of all of this is more alignment with your dreams, the end of situations that don’t serve or work any longer, and more peace of mind.
We began working with Sophia at the New Moon, learning to tap in to our own inner wisdom, identifying patterns, and finding the tipping point where we get to make a different choice, forever shifting the ways we get stuck. Rhodochrosite steps up as our crystal ally, asking us to choose love. When we choose love over judgment, we are also learning to love and accept ourselves. Rabbit speaks to us of fear and how to keep it from standing in the way of all we love, all we know, all we desire.
Read below for detailed information and insight, and for ways to use this energy to go farther, and walk better on your personal path.
Sophia – Goddess of Wisdom, female soul, source of God’s true power, wears many faces – Black Goddess, Divine Feminine, Mother of God.
A fecund, pregnant Sophia offers her cup of wisdom to you. She urges you to become still and look inward to listen, feel, see, and know what guidance needs to come through. Sophia wants you to connect to your own deep, enriching wisdom and guidance.
Are you in a pattern, doing the same thing or finding yourself in similar situations, over and over again?
Taking the time to truly settle in to your inner Sophia can reveal your next action steps and means to transmute the old patterns once and for all. As you go within, find where She resides – where is it? What does it look like? Smell like? Feel like?
Once you find Her, you can return to your inner Sophia again, and again. Use this time to push past the old limitations and patterns. You can do it! Everything you need to know is inside you.
Rhodochrosite – We learn about ourselves through relationships with others. From a Divine perspective, everyone we meet is a reflection of ourselves.
What we see in them – the things we admire, those things which we dislike – are all reflections of what lies inside. We feel aligned with those traits we like and admire, and feel disdain for those characteristics we deem negative.
Often, that which we dislike, is something within us that we refuse to look at, and own as ours. The truth is, that we would not be able to recognize such things if they were not within us, or had been part of our character at some point in the past.
Rhodochrosite is a stone of love and joy, encouraging us to elevate above judgment of others to discern what their traits reflect about ourselves. All relationships are a mix of positive and negative, helping us to broaden our understanding of life and love.
When you look at yourself in the mirror, do you see love? Can you look upon yourself with love and compassion within your heart?
Love and accept yourself as you are right now. Go to that place deep inside your heart, where beyond perceptions of good and bad, there exists only Love.
Rabbit – Rabbit asks you – What are you afraid of? What do the voices inside your head have to say? What negative tape is playing on repeat that you have decided to believe is true?
You are not your thoughts!
You don’t have to feed those thoughts or buy in to them. Thoughts are energy forms and fearful thinking calls the exact things you are afraid of into being. Rabbit says that what you resist, what you most fear, you will become.
Stop talking about horrible things happening, and get rid of worry-based thinking and action. Your worries about the future will not help you to control the outcome. And, in fact, may call that worse-case scenario to you.
Face your fears and release them. Own up to what haunts you, and defy it by moving ahead triumphantly.
Here are some helpful action steps to take over the next two weeks. Simple, but powerful, these rituals will help you transmute the blocks and limitations indicated in the cards. Use the full moon and waning moon energy to assist you.
Stand in front of a mirror for several minutes and take note of what thoughts and judgments arise as you gaze upon yourself. Each time you notice a negative thought, replace it with a loving thought, or even the opposite. You wouldn’t say such harsh things to someone you love, so why would you say and think such things about yourself? Treat yourself as you would your dearest friend.
Take time to write down all the fear-based thoughts that pop into your mind and play repeatedly. Then, either burn the piece of paper, or rip it to shreds and throw it away. Go somewhere outside and allow yourself to feel all those fears, allowing them to play out in your mind. As you feel the waves run through you, let that energy run down your body and in to the ground until they are gone. Make them a Divine Offering to Mother Earth. Replace the self-defeating, fearful, worry thoughts with new thoughts that are positive and brimming with possibility. Repeat as often as necessary.
As always, take time to rest and relax, Do the things that nourish your soul. Practice extreme self-care. And, when need be, turn everything off and burrow in for comfort, or go hide out in nature.
The purpose of this reading is to provide insight into the energy of this New Moon, and to inform you of the best ways to work with the energy for the Highest Good. Each Alchemical reading consists of three cards – one from the Medicine Card deck, one form the Crystal Oracle deck, and a card from the Goddess Oracle deck.
The overall sense I’m getting from these cards is that it’s time to love yourself fiercely, and to assert yourself more than ever, towards your goals. Ask yourself if your restlessness is better channeled in to rest and meditation? Or taking action and being assertive in your endeavors? New Moons are great times to set new intentions and goals, and work with them for the following 28 days, riding the wave up to Full Moon and back again. This New Moon in Cancer is feeling like a great time to start fresh and build momentum. Here are the nitty-gritty details….
Badger – The power of Badger medicine is the ability to be aggressive and fight for what you want. Badgers have a reputation for being vicious and quick to pounce, tearing their opponents to shreds.
Many powerful medicine women have Badger as a totem ally. Badger lives beneath the ground, in a burrow. It therefore sees, and is the keeper of the medicine roots. These roots are the key to aggressive healing as they ground negative energy in to the Earth by allowing it to pass into the ground as neutral energy.
Badger has much to say and you should heed the words that resonate most to you. You may be too quick to express your emotions without care for the consequences. Badger may also reflect the aggressive healer who will have the courage to use unconventional means to exact a cure. Not giving up until healing has been achieved. Badger medicine people do not give up on their dreams and goals. They are often the “boss” or the one that keeps everything going. They get the job done.
Ask yourself these questions – Have you been too meek in trying to attain your goals? Have you been expressing your anger in an unhealthy way? Do you feel helpless in some way? Do you lack aggressiveness or initiative? Take some time to go within and reflect on these questions. Then, maybe journal and explore the answers you find.
It may be time to use your anger to fuel you. Get angry about what you want to change, then find creative ways to channel that anger energy and DO SOMETHING that brings you closer to your goals. Put pictures and/or words around your environment that help you keep your sights set on the outcome you desire. Your anger is best used to get you moving and taking action. Do not allow apathy as an option!
Do not use your anger against yourself or another in harmful ways – that is too much aggression. Be constructive with it, instead. Or find ways to get it out of your system and release it harmlessly.
Use Badger’s healing to remove internal barriers and find new expressions of Self. Stay grounded and let the old, negative crap pass down into the Earth.
Ruby – This is a stone of true love and passion. You will soon find yourself glowing with new-found feelings of joy and wonder. Reflect on all you have to be thankful for and the special memories you hold dear. Release and forget the bad times, holding on to the love that was present then. Love yourself with fierceness and forgiveness, which is a sure way to usher in renewed love in all your relationships.
Sophia – Goddess of Wisdom, female soul, source of God’s true power, wears many faces – Black Goddess, Divine Feminine, Mother of God. A fecund, pregnant Sophia offers her cup of wisdom to you. She urges you to become still and look inward to listen, feel, see, and know what guidance needs to come through. Sophia wants you to connect to your own deep, enriching wisdom and guidance. Are you in a pattern, doing the same thing or finding yourself in similar situations, over and over again? Taking the time to truly settle in to your inner Sophia can reveal your next action steps, and provide means to transmute the old patterns once and for all. As you go within, find where She resides – where is it located? What does it look like? Smell like? Feel like? Once you find Her, you can return to your inner Sophia again, and again. Use this time to push past the old limitations and patterns. You can do it! Everything you need to know is inside you.
The purpose of this reading is to decipher the current energies related to the Full Moon in Capricorn, and to guide and inform you on how to work consciously with energy to capitalize on its benefits. This reading takes us from the Full Moon forward 2 weeks, until the New Moon. The cards are drawn as close as possible to the apex of the Full Moon, and consist of an animal totem from the Medicine Card deck, a card from the Goddess Oracle deck, and a crystal ally from the Crystal Oracle deck. Together, these cards inform our primordial selves with information that has been deeply encoded in our psyche for many lifetimes.
There are some lovely aspects represented here, with heart-opening, new ideas and creative expression, as well as fun, playful energy. Abundance, prayer, and gratitude are also featured. I can hardly think of more favorable aspects than these. Read on for more specific details and information on how to work with these energies.
Bast – Bast represents the life-giving, pleasurable aspect of the Sun, and rules pleasure, joy, music, dance, health and healing, the Moon, and cats (DUH!) She asks if you know how to play and what play means to you? Have you given any priority to playing? It’s likely you’ve been working so hard that you’ve forgotten to give yourself a break to play. Bast is urging you to come and play with her. She teaches that a wonderful way to nurture wholeness is to play. Discover which ways you enjoy playing, and do them.
Chrysoprase – Many wondrous experiences are in store for you! Chrysoprase helps open the heart center, allowing you to feel the presence of Divine unconditional love. A period of fertile creativity is upon you. You’ll give birth to new ideas that will reflect and align with your true Divine essence, enabling you to express that essence in a loving, compassionate way. As long as you remain true to yourself, you can create, manifest, and achieve all you desire. Listen to your heart, be guided by your intuition, and you will create the success and fulfillment you desire.
Buffalo – in Native American traditions, Buffalo is associated with the sacred pipe. The pipe represents the merging of masculine and feminine energies merging to seed Life. Pipe ceremonies “smoke” prayers in to being, and send them out to Great Spirit. Buffalo is also a symbol of great abundance, for it provided a major source of sustenance to the people. Buffalo was willing to be used for the highest good of all.
Ask yourself the following questions to be sure that you are aligned with the medicine of Buffalo:
Have I forgotten my eternal partner, Great Spirit?
Am I pushing myself too fast in the physical world, and keeping myself from seeing and knowing the importance of reunion with the Source of all life?
Have I forgotten to honor the ways of others and to afford them the same respect I wish to receive myself?
Do I feel that my life is being used for the highest good at this time?
Have I forgotten to be grateful for everything in my life – my friends, possessions, talents, health, family, etc?
Is it time to make peace with another, or to make peace with some inner conflict so I can walk in balance once again?
Use Buffalo medicine to give praise for the richness of life, and, for the sharing of that richness with all of life. Use the energy of prayer for others that their needs are met, that harmony prevails. Perhaps you need to be humble enough to pray for help for yourself. Then be grateful for what you receive. Recognize and honor the paths of others, and enjoy the peace that comes with knowing that all paths are sacred, albeit different from your own. Reconnect to the meaning of life, the Source of all that is, and praise the harmony of connection. Use your life for the highest good.
If you would like your own Alchemical reading, contact me here to set it up – I’d love to work with you!
It’s tough growing up, sometimes. You look to the adults to give you what you need and want. But, you must understand that they are in pain, and often unable to cope with life in healthy, loving ways.
There are so many things you need to know:
Little Lisa, you’ve no idea how loved you are. How smart, beautiful, creative, capable, and special you are and will always be. Your confusion and pain cloud the truth – that you are so dearly loved.
You did nothing wrong and are not at fault. Others put the blame on you to divert attention from their flaws and failures. As long as they focus on something else, they don’t have to look at, address , or take responsibility for their own poor decisions and unhappiness. They are not your responsibility, so no blame lies with you. You were only a girl doing your best to be happy despite your environment. Blame is the language of victimhood which doesn’t allow one to take responsibility.
Though they lied to you, those lies weren’t meant for you; the sad truth is, they were actually lying to themselves. And they still are.
There is a great deal of truth and wisdom in “I’m rubber, you’re glue – everything you say bounces off of me and sticks to you!” The many times you were told that you were undeserving, they were feeling undeserving, and wanted you to be more like them. But the truth is, you deserve everything you want, all the wonderful things that life has to offer.
They try and try to make you feel small, bad, guilty, in order to make themselves feel better. What they are really doing is projecting their own smallness on to you. You now know who you are, and can firmly grasp what belongs to you, and what is not yours.
Excuses are the language of the apathetic. They would rather complain and make excuses than make an effort to change.
All those things you want to do and be, you can do and be! Nothing is stopping you. You are limitless despite being taught otherwise. Those teachings are fallible, and therefore don’t apply to you. Refuse to listen to those voices that hold you back or tell you that you can’t do something. That independent, rebel spirit inside – this is where you apply it to get past a lifetime of negative messages. Rebel against “you can’t.” Rebel against so-called limitations. Fuck what other people think.
Some people are so used to darkness, because it’s all they know. It becomes comfortable, familiar, safe. When you shine the brilliant, beautiful light within you, they become scared. They think that light will hurt them. And, they know that the light will shine on their lies. When light reveals the truth, then it means people have to change. And for some reason people are afraid of change. Shine your light in your own, beautiful, bright and shiny way. And embrace changes, because that’s how you grow and evolve as a person.
So, forgive them and love them anyway. They can no longer hurt you, because you have the power to set boundaries. This new power is what protects you and all you hold dear. It lets people know that they can’t lie and hurt you any longer.
I am your mother now. – the adult you. I am here to give you everything that you never had – all the love, protection, guidance, attention, affection, the gifts, joy, fun, truth – everything your heart desires. I love you. I recognize the bright light inside you, and want to nurture that light to shine as bright as possible. I will hold you and ensure that you know you are always loved.
Don’t linger any longer on the hurt, their shortcomings, or the things they aren’t capable of giving you. Don’t give over to bitterness and resentment. To do so would make you just like them. Instead, be grateful for learning how not to be, for learning to be independent, self-sufficient, for being sensitive, for rising way above their circumstances.
You’ve done very well for yourself. And, you’ve done it without their help. You have a great life steeped in meaning and love. You are truly amazing, and have such a wonderful life ahead.
I love you.
A word about healing your inner child.
The most important part is loving yourself. Give yourself all the love, emotional support, forgiveness, protection, and parenting you were missing as a child. Keep pictures of yourself at different ages around or on your altar. Do things specifically for your inner child, like eating her favorite food, or listening to her favorite music. Talk to her, often. Be gentle. This work is a lifetime endeavor.